Greatest Fear

Not much inspires fear in my life. I may be dead inside. Unfeeling. Whatever.

Lock me in a room to face my greatest fear and what will I find there? Missed opportunities.

Chances where I could have made a positive difference in another person’s life but did not act. Points in my career where a bold move could have set an entirely new trajectory for work and family life, but I played it safe instead.

In teenage years, the options were limited. Actions much smaller. A bad first impression, a clumsy introduction I wanted to do over, holding hands too soon or too late. Missed moments now long gone that can never be overcome.

As a young man in life, there were choices of whom to date, spend time with, and invest attentions. Some choices were good. Others turned out badly. Live and learn. Move on.

As a husband and father there have been many times where the way forward seemed murky. Choices and consequences unclear from our perspective. In hindsight, too many revealed themselves with blindingly obvious clarity. If only I’d had the courage to take the chance.

Enough self-pity and loathing! Bring on the challenge! Lock me in a room with my worst regrets. I am no longer afraid.

You’re locked in a room with your greatest fear. Describe what’s in the room.

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